♥

2012-01-02T07:27:00.000-08:00

you are so special to me and i can't even explain why

68 days ...... ♡

SHINee is BACK

2012-01-01T05:35:00.000-08:00

Today's the first day of 2012 and the first thing I read about when I woke up in the morning. "SHINee's BACK". Seriously at that point of time, I didn't really know how to react, do not really know how to describe what I'm feeling. I'm happy, really very happy. Wedded bliss. :') It's like ..... the feeling like something that I waited for so long finally is going to come back to me? The wait is definitely worthwhile. Although this time round, the wait is quite long but I'm really glad that I've waited and that they still manage to be my priority. From the 'Hello' era till now, I've seen many people come and go ..... entered and leaving the fandom. Maybe it's because the wait is way too long. Maybe it's because they lost interest. I don't know.... I'm just glad and proud that I'm not one of them. I'm not a fan who supports them right from the start, 25th May 2008. I have no idea what I'm doing on that day.... how can I not know such a group debuted on that day.... but anyway, I only know that ever since I've discovered them, I know I have found what I've been looking for and made the right choice to be part of this fandom. It's going to be 3 years with them soon, for me.

A proud fan here so ....... 2012 will be SHINee's year. It will be their time to shine even more this year. My OT5 is back, make way. guys, SHINee is BACK

the first person who's on your mind the moment you open your eyes after a long sleep is the reason of either your happiness or pain.

never planned on one day that i'll stop loving you

2011-12-25T08:34:00.000-08:00

So... today's my last day of work ;____; I feel kind of 捨不得...really. And that I prefer working life than studying life. But well, studies = important. It's a fact. So I'm using my phone to blog now at this timing 12:36AM and I need to wake up at 5AM later. Leaving house at 6AM for the 3 days 2 nights trip to KL. Hopefully I can get to buy many clothes back!

Onew and Key updated me2day on christmas day. Minho updated during his birthday. Taemin updated it yesterday. And Jonghyun's last post is like during 4th september?????? HE WIN. Please update it soon boy T______T

Okay, will blog when I'm back. And pray hard there's wifi over at KL!!! Especially at the hotel we're staying in. Goodbye to my 3G till 7AM or 8AM later on. The thought of those twitter updates and all ........ omg, I'll really miss out a lot A LOT. T____T Well... what to do. Time for me to sleep, it's 12.45AM now. Goodnight ♡

slowly drifting away from my life and into yours.

now i feel like you were never here

2011-12-24T03:37:00.000-08:00

Sigh... I just keep on sighing after I knew about the 'SHINee Japan Arena Tour', there's 14 stops. The really sad thing is, I won't be there AGAIN. I mean it's possible for me to fly over to Japan for it but I think nobody is willing to go with me T___T And it's their showcase today. Everytime when I'm looking at all the updates, I feel so..... useless? I mean as a fan, who don't wish to be there at all of your idols' events or most of their events to show your support and love you have for them? I'll just say that Japanese fans are really lucky and that SHINee debuted IN JAPAN is a fact and that I can only be supporting them by buying their albums and official stuffs at where am I now. And I guess I won't even have the chance to see them again unless there's smtown sg stop. Being an overseas fan is really hard, really tough.

Anyway, work was fun today ^___^ Ran out of wrapping paper and me and Daren at there like keep on niam niam niam about the supervisor cause she don't want to order anymore wrapping paper when obviously it's NOT ENOUGH. And some customers, really super ceebee. Wrap for you still want see your black face ~____~ Whatever, tomorrow is my last day~ Will miss some of the promoters there T___T nice people. After I'm back from KL trip, slacking life again. Everyday ---> wake up, computer, watch show, eat, sleep. That same old cycle. But of course if there's any jobs offer by the agency, I'll go and work.

For my own self-reference,
SHINee Japan Arena Tour dates

4/25 : Fukuoka Convention Center
4/29 : Makomanai Indoor Stadium
5/3 : Nippon Gaishi Hall Nagoya
5/4 : Nippon Gaishi Hall Nagoya
5/8 : Osaka Castle Hall
5/9 : Osaka Castle Hall
5/12 : Kobe World Memorial Hall
5/13 : Kobe World Memorial Hall
5/30 : Yoyogi National Gymnasium
5/31 : Yoyogi National Gymnasium
6/2 : Yoyogi National Gymnasium
6/3 : Yoyogi National Gymnasium
6/30 : Hiroshima Green Arena
7/1 : Hiroshima Green Arena

i know i can't love you as a lover

i've been trying to make tears disappear...

2011-12-23T06:16:00.000-08:00

Bad headache in the morning T____T but in the end I still went to work.... for money of course. But work was fun and many funny things happened today ^___^ So now I'm left with only 2 days of work. Last day on this sunday and I'll be at KL from 26th - 29th. No more internet for me to use this time round because my phone bill kind of exploded last month because I on 3G and data roaming all the time... so no safari, no twitter, no weibo, no everything for me for that 3 days. How am I gonna survive T___T I don't know..

SHINee photocards so far!
Hopefully I can get the onew lucifer kr version photocard from Samantha next week. 9 more to go and I'm done, for now.

if you're mine, you're only mine. i don't like sharing.

I love you and everything about you

2011-12-21T06:44:00.000-08:00

Sudden feel to start blogging again. So I'll do so if I have the time... so now yeah, the sudden feel. Nothing much happened these few days, just working working and working. For money, for my fandom. I wanna blog in chinese because I can sort of like express myself more but I'm too lazy to type the words in han yu pin yin one by one ...

And sometimes I just wonder... so what if I spend so much time and effort on something that I know it won't last? Sigh I don't know too... maybe because the feelings are too deep to let go?

you make me smile so easily.

2011-11-11T04:36:00.000-08:00

11/11/11

I've said before that I'll always be wishing something related to you on every 11:11 ♡

how long will i be able to love and chase you like this?

2011-11-10T03:42:00.000-08:00

his life motto:
"To be understanding in all aspects."

"The reason I live for, family, music and Minho, Jinki, Taemin, Kibum… SHINee. And SHINee World!!!!!!!!"

"I can’t help but feel burden each time I stand on stage."

"I’ve walked the road I’ve wanted to ever since I was young. I did everything the way I wanted to. I joined a band, transferred to a music school from my high school, dropped out and received my GED. Then debuted. I’ve lived the way I wanted to. I’ve walked the road the way I imagined it. I think that I’ve walked through it decently, but I don’t necessarily like it. I don’t like it."

"It’s the fate of singers to convince the listeners to accept it, thinking that it’s worth it. Even if you take the stage alone."

"There are so many people who sing better than I do."

"Dear future wife, darling~ I'm sorry I haven't been a good husband. Let's have children soon or I'll be infertile."

"I also agree with the members that Jonghyun is the one that cries the most."

“Acknowledge rather than understand. This is my way of life drawn from my experience."

“I like puppies so much. I can’t resist myself when I see a playful puppy and will end up playing with it.”

"I want to be able to play the guitar well, as well as other instruments."

“I love music."

"When I'm in love, when I'm dating, I'm the kind who wouldn’t change much from who I am normally."

“When I was little, my mum wouldn't give me pocket money if I didn’t write book reports."

“SHINee? SHINee is SHINee, what's more to explain? To me, SHINee is like this, going together all the way as we get older.”

"Music is like a story."

"Having an increase in the number of experiences in getting to perform live, I am proud of myself."

"I don’t lie. Really. I’m objective. And I’m blood type AB."

"Saying that I’m still young, I do a lot of things I shouldn’t."

"I concentrate a lot on pronunciation when I'm singing."

"In regards to SHINee’s fandom I definitely have a greed for more. I mean that I want to receive recognition from the people who say that music nowadays isn’t even music."

"I didn’t feel disappointed at all not being able to take my high school graduation exams. But when Minho took his I suddenly felt sad."

"SHINee does commercial music. It is commercial music. It means that we have to do music that people listen to."

"Even if I’m alone on stage I’m going to sing."

"I’m the type of guy that will pester myself."

"I hope that is the moment where people will remember me."

“There is no shortcut to perfection, all it takes is hard work, and more hard work”

"Why cover up if you make a mistake, just admit it truthfully won’t it be good?"

"Concerts are tiring. However when you’re up on stage, you came in contact with all of the fans so at the end of the day, you'll feel content and have a nice sleep."

"Even though I may be exhausted, sick or lonely ... even though my feet is not able to dance now, always remember that my heart always belong to you. Please promise to always be by my side." - Jonghyun (during that period when he felt like he had nothing left...)

"My goal is to become a songwriter, so if i can’t do that, I don’t want the money."

"The road I am walking on now, it is made up of my dreams and wishes."

"Sometimes when I look back at my footsteps, I see my old-self dreaming of becoming who I am today."

"If I love a girl, I will love her everything."

"I was so excited about out first concert. My expectations were up to 100%, and I thought I should rock."

"To me, SHINee is the center. SHINee is something I can put in the center."

2011-04-20T02:48:00.000-07:00

this is just like ... a place for you. a place meant for only you. a place where i write all about you. i don't know why i created this blog for. maybe it's because i know that one day, maybe... you'll disappear from screen, from my life but ... never from my heart. so i'll keep all about you in this place. whereby whenever i miss you, i can have something to make myself feel better because i kept all about you in this place. and even as days pass by, you'll not be forgotten because whenever i'm here at this place, i'll feel like you're still in my life and the feeling never changes. you are still the guy who make me fall so deep in love. so even if one day you're not an idol anymore, please know that you're perfect just the way you are. i'm not kidding, you make me compare every guy to you, you make me cry, you occupied the whole of my mind. everytime i look at you, it's like i'm falling in love all over again. if only you could see yourself through my eyes, you'll know how perfect you really to me. this place, it's for you and it's all about.... you......

will i get to see you again? when...?